10sion even after exams...

The students usually wish 24+ hours a day, during exams, not excluding myself. But during this exam, I desired that the time must go by as fast as possible, not because I had prepared my subjects well, but I was fascinated to put in writing something in this blog page. I was bothered to write about someone, whom I like and admire most… Who has given a fresh touch in my life inside the classroom. Whose teaching make me fascinated and whose perception made me to look at an episode with different vision. Whose…
When the company law exam was there, I reached my college 45 minutes before the exam, so, that I can concentrate well. My network (mind) gets failed after driving bike in these sun-drenched days. But just after reaching, when I was keeping my bags on that rack, Pradeep Sir told me that ….. is leaving us. Ohhhhhhhhhh! I am sorry. But why? He is appointed as VC in NLUO.
That day I could not able to sleep well at night. More than thousand times he had told us, “I will leave to AMU”. But never was I worried, because I knew that he will not leave for sure, because he loves us and this institution, like anything.
But this time he is not saying anything as such. But I am worried. I am not worried, for my career, and my placement. Something is disturbing me from inside. I immediately became my own guardian and said to me, “If he leaves he will only go to a place which is just 30 kms from here. I can see him any day, I wish. I can talk to him just dialing 09437020231 or in gtalk.” But I failed to make me understand. Some emotional attachments were working there. It was not the attachment like in email, which can be removed just by clicking remove after attaching.
The very next day when I saw that drawing sheet on the wall showing its face with “SIR PLEASE DON’T LEAVE US”, my joy forgets every limit. I took pen from Ashis immediately and put my name over there with font more than 48 and not in New Times Roman script.
I was not able to talk to… (him) often, like my friends may be because I know neither English nor Hindi properly or I forget my words when I come face to face him. Perhaps… (he) didn’t know my name till date. But I adore him. I enjoy when he speaks. I dance from within, when he says with a loud voice “…my country”
Today, after the last exam, I rushed to Shreerupa Ma’am, in the name of asking about internship. But nothing new!! What I have seen at http://www.orissalinks.com/archives/category/other-colleges/non-traditional-colleges/law is true. … is appointed. Ma’am told us, Sir has promised to come at dinner to talk to us. After that also my friends were waiting today’s evening. But I could not able to hold my patience more. I recalled the days with my Sir. I questioned myself; will I see a different face when I will look inside the director chamber from outside…?

SIR PLEASE DON'T GO...

STOP celebrating b'day...

“Is this birthday makes you feel older?” Ali Sir, whom I believe as “the” philosopher of our college, asked me with his soft, lazy and unclear voice, which I could not get, even after his reiterating for two to three times. I asked Shreerupa Ma’am, about the question. Ma’am told me in Oriya-Janma dina re tote lage ki tu Bada hoijaichu?. I instantaneously said “No”, even without thinking for an apt reply to his question. He then said, “Its okay, then I will take one (chocolate)”.
Then I took my bag and left for home unlike every other day. I was driving slowly. People, who have seen my driving, might laugh, as if I drive very fast in other days. However, I was asking myself “have I really grown up?”, “Have I really seen 20 springs (answer to Kartik Sir’s question) in my life?” Really I have never thought of it.
I looked at the mirror of the bike and asked myself again and again, the same. Am I really grown up? I was not prepared to accept the reality instantly because today also I believe myself that little child, what I was 10 to 12 yrs before. But my white hair on that mirror was simply unwilling to go with my emotions.
Really inside this 6’ body, I am that tutul, what I was before. Today also, I look for my mother while taking food. Today also my mother keeps my books and copies inside my bag when I come to college. Today also my brother (younger to me) brings for me clothes and other things. Today also I sit at back, while going anywhere, as if I am younger to my brother. Today also I play with little kids as their friends of their age. Today also I keep on drawing when I am studying.
Any one may deny, but I am still a child and I also want to remain one. Free from antagonism, far from envy, free from revulsion and liberated from all awful stuffs. My friends! childhood is incredibly pleasant. Make the birthday at least a day to go back to your childhood once again. If you feel this birthday, brings you closer to death, STOP celebrating it.